Friday, August 24, 2007


Me and my man. 13 years next month - Wow, did we really get together when I was 9? (Tomorrow's my b-day - remember? turning 22? :)

Make it stop!

I am such a loser at this BLOG thing!

I didn't put very much thought into the fact that I wouldn't have internet access for a while when I created this thing. We still don't, but I am stealing a few minutes from work to type and update. I had already forgotten my password to this thing, so that took a "few minutes" alone!

Last week - this is how it went. (All within SEVEN FREAK'N DAYS!)

went to the Seattle water park for daughter's B-day party (5hrs in car - 5hrs at water park)
sold our home
bought a new home
gave my two week notice at work
moved our household
directed a kickball tournament / picnic for 200 people
had a job interview

This week is running a little better, but I still can't find my favorite pair of jeans or my daughter's toothbrush. I haven't had time to go to the store to buy her a new one, so she is sharing mine. There is something REALLY wrong with that.

We should be getting internet in our home someday soon. Until then, I discovered that the small coffee shop slash interior decorators shop slash architect office slash whatever else they can cram in the tiny house has wireless internet. (thanks to the bank next door he said) So - the coffee is "so so" but the silence is wonderful there. It's certainly not the type of place I imagined to see in the same town that still has a huge tractor parade every year!

I haven't really missed the internet home connection just yet. That's suprising to me. Now that I am not infactuated with finding a home on the real estate market and also now that I am not reading my work emails every day and night, I haven't needed it as much as before. I get home, I eat, and I go take a long bath in my new big jacuzzi tub and then I crawl into my bed that is still on the floor. We can't decide where in the room to put it, but we have had a total of 10 minutes together in the past 8 days - that discussion will have to wait.

Did I mention that I can't wait for my fall line-up on TV? Grey's Anatomy! I miss my McSteamy man!

I guess I must go and earn my pay check. I just got back from a long lunch with a friend. TOMORROW is my BIRTHDAY! I am such a birthday princess, but this year it really snuck up on me. Am I really going to be 22? Wow, last year went fast!

Later Gators - If there are actually any gators that read this..... See ya round like a donut.

Wednesday, August 15, 2007

It's the FINAL COUNT DOWN - Holy Crap

So......

Um... HI! Where - how do I start. Flow.... words..... go... any. day. now. (Lori! Help!)

I have so much going on in my life and in about 2.5 weeks I most likely will be bored out my mind. I decided to start this blog for few reasons. My family of four will be moving back to my hometown (poplulation of 900) in less than 3 days. Tomorrow I am putting in my notice at work and I will become a stay at home mom to my two young children and the obedient wife to my husband of 12 years. Yeah right... That part was added in just for him. I giggle every time I re-read the sentence.

This decision we made together has me dealing with many mixed emotions, but mostly excitement. It's been at least 5 years since I worked part time and that was when my baby boy was two. I went to work full time for my own personal reasons (those reasons are to come as we get to know each other.....) and I have always been torn and felt guilty since then that I have been taking away from my children. Financially - we could have made stricter spending decisions and made it work to have me at least just work part time - but we fell into that make more = spend more routine.

Being home to raise them means so much to me. Less chaos, organization, Christ, I even said I would do the bills every month. Before, I just had to work my full time job, deposit my little paycheck and be the shopper for the family. I also did most of the housework and other Mom duties, but now it's a WHOLE NEW BALL GAME. Do I now have to kneel in front of him (the bread winner) and beg for my Starbucks allowance? No Starbucks in Yamhill, so I am a little bit safe. I think the nearest one is at least 8 miles away - it won't be probably a week before I google and mapblast the nearest store. Better yet, I'll text my home girl (literally a hometown girl) Keri - she's more of a coffee freak than me.

My current job is our bread and butter, so we will have to do without the new hot tub, ski boat, husband's Harley, and of course, my new melons. I know it will only be a matter of adjustment to the income level and lack of toys, or who knows, just until I go freak'n lack of caffeine crazy and become the greeter at Walmart just to fill my caffeine needs. HA! My 10yr old daughter just suggested I give pedicures for a living - um, yeah - touch other people's dirty moldy feet. AIN'T THAT CAFFEINE DESPERATE - yet.

Let me state very clearly that I am so appreciative and grateful for this opportunity to be home to raise the kids. I have some VERY CLOSE friends of mine who are are single moms. I can not even begin to imagine how they do this and keep their sanity. MB and TD - you guys are amazing. You are two of the strongest people I know and your girls are very lucky to have you as role models. I know they are as proud of you as I am. Your children clearly reflect what a great job you have done - all three are beautiful and brave girls.

Great - I have myself crying on my very first post. Stop that. Enough... I shall now go down stairs and feed myself with some double chocolate fudge brownie ice cream and fresh strawberries. I'm not sure where your from, but to us Oregon hicks - getting emotional = ice cream.